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« on: December 24, 2012, 01:01:34 AM »
Since everyone else is posting I figured I will too. Within the last 2 months I've been dealing with several deaths within my family and friends. First my grandma was lost due to cancer that ate through her neck causing her to not be able to eat. About a week later we had to put my dog down that we owned for around 6-7 years which left me heart-broken, and on the same day my best friend moved away to California (With me currently living in Iowa - Sophomore in high school) A few days went by and during school I noticed that another one of my friends hadn't been there for a while and I didn't think anything of it. On that Friday I was called into the office and was notified that my friend had commited suicide that Wednesday. Immediately I pretty much gave up on everything, my parents forced me to go to a psychologist hoping that it would somehow make me feel somewhat better. So pretty much, it's been a pretty depressing time for me and I isolated myself to the computer, considering that I can just release my mind and not worry about the outside troubles. Anyways, within the last two weeks things have cleared up. After finals i barely passed my classes with a variety of D's (Exciting news because i was worried I would have to re-take them). We went out and got a Cockapoo around a year old and named him Stormy, which he really brightens up my day. I try to spend less time on the PC and transition back into the real world, I just dream and feel like with whatever I get attached to, I'll just end up losing "it" in the long run anyways. Idk why i'm even posting this but I guess it's another thing i can get off of my chest. I'm sure other people have been through MUCH harder times dealing with loss and loneliness is not a good way for me to waste my teenage years.